Part 7. Chapter 26.

Never before had a day been passed in quarrel. Jamais auparavant un jour ne s'était passé en querelle. Today was the first time. And this was not a quarrel. It was the open acknowledgment of complete coldness. C'était la reconnaissance ouverte d'une totale froideur. Was it possible to glance at her as he had glanced when he came into the room for the guarantee?—to look at her, see her heart was breaking with despair, and go out without a word with that face of callous composure? Était-il possible de la regarder comme il l'avait regardé quand il était entré dans la chambre pour la garantie? - de la regarder, de voir que son cœur se brisait de désespoir, et de sortir sans un mot avec ce visage impitoyable? He was not merely cold to her, he hated her because he loved another woman—that was clear.

And remembering all the cruel words he had said, Anna supplied, too, the words that he had unmistakably wished to say and could have said to her, and she grew more and more exasperated.

"I won't prevent you," he might say. «Je ne vous en empêcherai pas», pourrait-il dire. "You can go where you like. You were unwilling to be divorced from your husband, no doubt so that you might go back to him. Vous ne vouliez pas divorcer de votre mari, sans doute pour pouvoir revenir vers lui. Go back to him. If you want money, I'll give it to you. How many roubles do you want?" All the most cruel words that a brutal man could say, he said to her in her imagination, and she could not forgive him for them, as though he had actually said them.

"But didn't he only yesterday swear he loved me, he, a truthful and sincere man? Haven't I despaired for nothing many times already?" Nejaugi aš jau daug kartų dėl nieko nevilčiau? she said to herself afterwards.

All that day, except for the visit to Wilson's, which occupied two hours, Anna spent in doubts whether everything were over or whether there were still hope of reconciliation, whether she should go away at once or see him once more. She was expecting him the whole day, and in the evening, as she went to her own room, leaving a message for him that her head ached, she said to herself, "If he comes in spite of what the maid says, it means that he loves me still. If not, it means that all is over, and then I will decide what I'm to do!…" In the evening she heard the rumbling of his carriage stop at the entrance, his ring, his steps and his conversation with the servant; he believed what was told him, did not care to find out more, and went to his own room. So then everything was over.

And death rose clearly and vividly before her mind as the sole means of bringing back love for her in his heart, of punishing him and of gaining the victory in that strife which the evil spirit in possession of her heart was waging with him. Et la mort s'éleva clairement et vivement devant son esprit comme le seul moyen de ramener l'amour pour elle dans son cœur, de le punir et de remporter la victoire dans cette lutte que le mauvais esprit en possession de son cœur livrait avec lui.

Now nothing mattered: going or not going to Vozdvizhenskoe, getting or not getting a divorce from her husband—all that did not matter. The one thing that mattered was punishing him. When she poured herself out her usual dose of opium, and thought that she had only to drink off the whole bottle to die, it seemed to her so simple and easy, that she began musing with enjoyment on how he would suffer, and repent and love her memory when it would be too late. She lay in bed with open eyes, by the light of a single burned-down candle, gazing at the carved cornice of the ceiling and at the shadow of the screen that covered part of it, while she vividly pictured to herself how he would feel when she would be no more, when she would be only a memory to him. "How could I say such cruel things to her?" he would say. "How could I go out of the room without saying anything to her? But now she is no more. She has gone away from us forever. She is…." Suddenly the shadow of the screen wavered, pounced on the whole cornice, the whole ceiling; other shadows from the other side swooped to meet it, for an instant the shadows flitted back, but then with fresh swiftness they darted forward, wavered, commingled, and all was darkness. Soudain, l'ombre de l'écran vacilla, bondit sur toute la corniche, tout le plafond; d'autres ombres de l'autre côté se précipitèrent pour le rencontrer, pendant un instant les ombres retournèrent, mais ensuite, avec une rapidité fraîche, elles se précipitèrent en avant, vacillèrent, se mélangèrent, et tout fut obscurité. "Death!" she thought. And such horror came upon her that for a long while she could not realize where she was, and for a long while her trembling hands could not find the matches and light another candle, instead of the one that had burned down and gone out. "No, anything—only to live! "Ne, nieko - tik gyventi! Why, I love him! Why, he loves me! This has been before and will pass," she said, feeling that tears of joy at the return to life were trickling down her cheeks. Cela a été avant et va passer », dit-elle, sentant que des larmes de joie au retour à la vie coulaient sur ses joues. And to escape from her panic she went hurriedly to his room.

He was asleep there, and sleeping soundly. Hij sliep daar en sliep diep. She went up to him, and holding the light above his face, she gazed a long while at him. Now when he was asleep, she loved him so that at the sight of him she could not keep back tears of tenderness. But she knew that if he waked up he would look at her with cold eyes, convinced that he was right, and that before telling him of her love, she would have to prove to him that he had been wrong in his treatment of her. Without waking him, she went back, and after a second dose of opium she fell towards morning into a heavy, incomplete sleep, during which she never quite lost consciousness.

In the morning she was waked by a horrible nightmare, which had recurred several times in her dreams, even before her connection with Vronsky. A little old man with unkempt beard was doing something bent down over some iron, muttering meaningless French words, and she, as she always did in this nightmare (it was what made the horror of it), felt that this peasant was taking no notice of her, but was doing something horrible with the iron— over her. And she waked up in a cold sweat.

When she got up, the previous day came back to her as though veiled in mist. Quand elle se leva, la veille lui revint comme voilée de brume.

"There was a quarrel. Just what has happened several times. I said I had a headache, and he did not come in to see me. Tomorrow we're going away; I must see him and get ready for the journey," she said to herself. And learning that he was in his study, she went down to him. As she passed through the drawing room she heard a carriage stop at the entrance, and looking out of the window she saw the carriage, from which a young girl in a lilac hat was leaning out giving some direction to the footman ringing the bell. After a parley in the hall, someone came upstairs, and Vronsky's steps could be heard passing the drawing room. Après un parlement dans le couloir, quelqu'un monta à l'étage et on entendit les pas de Vronsky passer dans le salon. He went rapidly downstairs. Anna went again to the window. She saw him come out onto the steps without his hat and go up to the carriage. The young girl in the lilac hat handed him a parcel. Vronsky, smiling, said something to her. The carriage drove away, he ran rapidly upstairs again.

The mists that had shrouded everything in her soul parted suddenly. Les brumes qui avaient enveloppé tout dans son âme se séparèrent soudainement. The feelings of yesterday pierced the sick heart with a fresh pang. Les sentiments d'hier ont transpercé le cœur malade d'une nouvelle douleur. She could not understand now how she could have lowered herself by spending a whole day with him in his house. Elle ne pouvait pas comprendre maintenant comment elle aurait pu s'abaisser en passant une journée entière avec lui dans sa maison. She went into his room to announce her determination.

"That was Madame Sorokina and her daughter. They came and brought me the money and the deeds from maman. Ils sont venus m'apporter l'argent et les actes de maman. Jie atėjo ir atnešė man pinigus ir darbus iš maman. I couldn't get them yesterday. How is your head, better?" he said quietly, not wishing to see and to understand the gloomy and solemn expression of her face.

She looked silently, intently at him, standing in the middle of the room. He glanced at her, frowned for a moment, and went on reading a letter. She turned, and went deliberately out of the room. He still might have turned her back, but she had reached the door, he was still silent, and the only sound audible was the rustling of the note paper as he turned it.

"Oh, by the way," he said at the very moment she was in the doorway, "we're going tomorrow for certain, aren't we?" "You, but not I," she said, turning round to him. "Anna, we can't go on like this…" "You, but not I," she repeated. "This is getting unbearable!" "You…you will be sorry for this," she said, and went out. Frightened by the desperate expression with which these words were uttered, he jumped up and would have run after her, but on second thoughts he sat down and scowled, setting his teeth. This vulgar—as he thought it—threat of something vague exasperated him. Ši vulgari - kaip jis manė - grėsmė dėl kažko neaiškaus jį jaudino. "I've tried everything," he thought; "the only thing left is not to pay attention," and he began to get ready to drive into town, and again to his mother's to get her signature to the deeds. She heard the sound of his steps about the study and the dining room. At the drawing room he stood still. But he did not turn in to see her, he merely gave an order that the horse should be given to Voytov if he came while he was away. Then she heard the carriage brought round, the door opened, and he came out again. Puis elle entendit la voiture ramenée, la porte s'ouvrit et il en ressortit. But he went back into the porch again, and someone was running upstairs. It was the valet running up for his gloves that had been forgotten. She went to the window and saw him take the gloves without looking, and touching the coachman on the back he said something to him. Then without looking up at the window he settled himself in his usual attitude in the carriage, with his legs crossed, and drawing on his gloves he vanished round the corner. Puis, sans lever les yeux vers la fenêtre, il s'installa dans son attitude habituelle dans la voiture, les jambes croisées, et, tirant sur ses gants, il disparut au coin de la rue.