第 10章 真相 (1) Chapter 10: The Truth (1) Capítulo 10 La verdad (1)

深夜 两点 过后 ，就 连 一向 车水马龙 的 环市 东路 也 冷清 下来。 After two o'clock in the middle of the night, even Huanshi East Road, which has always been busy with traffic, was deserted. 酒店 门口 *星号星号 来 *星号星号 去 的 几个 妓女 估计 要 就是 出来 做 今晚 第四 第五 轮 生意 ，要 就是 确实 长相 有 问题。 The few prostitutes at the door of the hotel who come and go are probably either out for their fourth or fifth round of business tonight, or they do look questionable. 不过 貌不惊人 的 妓女 往往 有 拿手 好招 ，有些 还 愿意 做 其他 娼妓 不 愿意 做 的 变态 行为。 However, unattractive prostitutes are often good at what they do, and some are willing to engage in perverted behaviors that other prostitutes are unwilling to do. 如果 是 在 往日 ，我 就 会 趋 步 向前 ，逗 她们 说出 自己 的 拿手 绝招 或者 多加 十块钱 而 愿意 干 的 变态 行为 ，然而 今天 我 完全 没有 心情。 In the past, I would have moved forward, teasing them about their tricks or the perversions they were willing to commit for an extra ten dollars, but today I was in no mood at all. 我 摇摇晃晃 地 走 到 国际 大厦 对面 ，在 一个 电话亭 旁边 停下来。 I staggered across the street to the International Building and stopped by a phone booth.

当 我 从 裤子 口袋 里 找出 一个 一元 硬币 时 ，心里 有 一丝 快感 ，那 是 报复 的 快感。 When I found a dollar bill in my pants pocket, I felt a thrill of revenge. 我 想着 半夜 两点钟 的 电话 铃声 把 她 从 睡梦中 惊醒 ，拿 起 电话 ，里面 传出 仿佛 来自 幽灵 世界 空洞 的 回声。 Thinking of the phone ringing at two o'clock in the middle of the night waking her up from her sleep, I picked up the phone, and there was a hollow echo that seemed to come from a ghost world. 在 她 心生 恐怖 ，完全 从 睡梦中 清醒过来 时 ，电话 里 突然 传出 低沉 、幽幽 仿佛 来自 地狱 的 声音 ：我 是 蓉 儿—— When she was terrified and completely awake from sleep, a low, ghostly voice as if from hell suddenly came from the phone: "This is Rong'er...

我 心里 冷笑 着 ，把 那个 被 巍巍 发抖 的 手 沾湿 的 硬币 塞进 电话 孔里 ，拨通 了 我 自己 家里 的 电话号码。 With a smile on my face, I shoved the coin, wet with shaking hands, into the telephone hole and dialed my own home number. 一声 ，两声 ，我 的 手 抖动 得 厉害。 One, two, and my hands were shaking like crazy.

“喂 ，文峰！ ”只有 两声 ，电话 就 被 拿 起来 ，里面 传来 阿华 轻快 的 声音 ：“文峰 ，你 怎么 还 不 回来 呀 ，我 担心 死 了 ，要 我 接 你 吗？" "The phone was picked up with only two rings, and A-hwa's cheerful voice came from inside: "Wenfeng, why aren't you back yet? I'm worried sick. Do you want me to pick you up?"

毫无作用！ like water off a duck's back! 这个 女人 不但 没有 睡 ，还 在 那里 关心 地 等 着 我。 Not only did the woman not sleep, but she was waiting there with concern for me. 我 还 没有 来得及 假装 出 地狱 那种 声音 ，她 已经 判断 出是 我。 I haven't had time to pretend to sound like hell, she's already decided it's me. 我 惭愧 得 很 ，其实 我 的 电话 不是 我 打 ，还有 谁 会 打？ I am so ashamed. If I didn't make the call, who else would have done so? 没有 人 知道 我 的 电话号码 ，就算 人家 知道 ，也 没有 人会 在 这个 时候 打 给 我。 No one knows my phone number, and even if they did, no one would call me at this time. 我 拿 着 话筒 ，一时 不 知道 如何是好。 I held the microphone and didn't know what to do for a moment.

“文峰 ，怎么 啦？ "Wen Feng, what's wrong? 说话 呀 ，别 让 我 担心 ，我 想 你！ Talk, don't make me worry, I miss you! ”阿华 的 声音 娇柔 得 几乎 让 我 放弃。 "Ahua's voice was so soft it almost made me give up.

“我——”

“文峰 ，你 不是 喝醉 了 吧？ "Wen Feng, you're not drunk, are you? 如果 那样 你 就 呆 在 酒店 ，我 过来 接 你 ，好不好？" If that's the case, you stay at the hotel and I'll come and get you, okay?"

“我 没有 醉 ，我 从来 没有 象 今天 这么 清醒！ "I'm not drunk, I've never been sober as I am today! 我——” I--"

“文峰 ，你 怎么 支支吾吾 的 ，出 了 什么 事？ "Wen Feng, why are you agitating? What's the matter? ”电话 那边 传来 阿华 忧心 的 声音。 "Wah's worried voice came over the phone.

“我 ，我 ——”我 突然 拿 定 了 主意 ，立即 换 了 种 腔调 说 ：“我 知道 我 为什么 *星号星号 了！ "I, I—" I suddenly made up my mind, and immediately said in a different tone: "I know why I ************** 真的！"

电话 的 那边 沉默 了 几秒钟。 There was silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds. 接着 ，阿华 轻柔 的 声音 又 飘进 我 耳朵 ：“文峰 ，你 到底 怎么 了？ Then, Ah Hua's soft voice drifted into my ears again: "Wen Feng, what's wrong with you? 我 根本 不介意 你 是否 *星号星号，你 知道 我 都 愿意 跟着 你 ，你 难道 一直 为 这 事 耿耿于怀 吗？” I don't mind at all if you *star**, you know I'm willing to follow you, do you keep brooding about it?

“是 的 ，我 介意。" "Yes, I mind." 我 说 ，“你 今晚 可以 配合 我 吗？ I said, "Will you cooperate with me tonight? 我要 让 你 知道 我 *星号星号 的 原因。" I'm gonna let you know the reason for my *asterisk asterisk*."

“我 愿意 为 你 做 一切 ，你 回来 吧！" 阿华 幽幽地 叹 着 气。 "I'll do anything for you. Come back!" A-hwa sighed quietly.

“好 ，我 问 你 ，你 现在 穿 什么？" "Well, let me ask you, what are you wearing now?"

“我 在 被窝 里 等 你 ，什么 也 没有 穿 呀。" "I'm waiting for you under the covers with nothing on."

“好！” 我 想 了 几秒钟 ，“你 现在 去 洗个 澡。" "Yes!" I thought for a few seconds, "You go take a shower now."

“我 刚刚 洗 过 啦。" "I just washed it."

“不行 ，要 再 洗 ，里里外外 都 洗 一遍！” "No, you have to wash it again, inside and out!" 我 坚定 地 命令 道 ，“然后 不许 化 任何 妆 ，要 绝对 原汁原味 ，知道 吗！ I firmly ordered, "And then no makeup, absolutely nothing, okay? 并且 什么 也 不许 穿 ，不 ，你 等等 ——好 ，在 我 放 内衣 的 第二个 柜 格里 ，夹 在 我 短裤 的 中间 ，有 一条 丝质 的 女装 丁字 **星号星号，你 穿 上 ，其他 什么 都 不许 穿。 And don't wear anything, no, you wait - well, in the second compartment where I keep my underwear, in the middle of my shorts, there's a silk women's g-string asterisk, you put it on, and you don't wear anything else. 洗完 澡后 用 毛毯 裹 着 自己 躺 在 **星号星号 （床上）等 着 我 ，知道 吗？" When you're done bathing, wrap yourself in a blanket and wait for me on the asterisk-asterisk, okay?"

“知道。" 阿华 激动 得 声音 都 有些 发抖 ，“你 快点 回来 ，我会 湿 的！" "I know." A-hwa's voice trembled with excitement, "Come back soon, I'll get wet!"

“不许 湿！如果 湿 了 ，要 去 再 洗。回来 时 我 要 你 一点 都 不许 湿！! " "Don't get wet! If it's wet, go wash it again. And when you come back, I want you not to get wet at all! I don't want you to get wet!

说 罢 ，我 马上 重重地 挂 起 电话。 I hung up the phone heavily right after I said that. 回头 看到 一个 妓女 站 在 离 我 一步 之 遥 的 电话亭 旁边 ，贪婪 地 盯 着 我 ，几乎 是 流着 口水 冲 我 **星号 星号 笑 着 ：“你 可 真够 变态 的！" I turned around to see a prostitute standing next to a phone booth one step away from me, staring greedily at me, practically drooling and smiling at me with asterisks and asterisks, "You're such a pervert!"

我 拿出 钥匙 ，小心 插 进门 孔 ，扭 开锁 ，轻轻 推开 门 ，“一句 话 不要 说 ，听到 没有 ，我 说 不许 出 声！" I took out the key, carefully inserted it into the door hole, twisted the lock, and gently pushed the door open, "Don't say a word, if you hear me, I say don't make a sound!" 听到 **星号 星号 传来 转身 的 声音 ，我 大声 喝令 ，顺手 把 房间 的 灯 关上。 "When I heard the sound of turning around from the \\*\\*asterisk\\*\\*, I shouted loudly and turned off the lights in the room.

“把 床头 的 小灯 打开！" 我 命令 道。 "Turn on the bedside lamp!" I ordered. 等 阿华 打开 床头灯 后 ，我 又 再 强调 着 ，严厉 命令 ：“从 现在 开始 ，只 听 我 命令 ，不许 出 声！ After Ah Hua turned on the bedside lamp, I emphasized it again and gave a stern order: "From now on, just listen to my orders and don't make a sound! 现在 把 床头灯 调 到 最暗。" Now turn the bedside lamp to dim."

房间 里 立即 暗 下来。 The room immediately darkened. 我 深深 呼吸 一口气 ，闭上眼睛 ，“象 剥 粽子 一样 把 身上 的 毯子 剥开 ，然后——” I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, "Take off the blanket like a zongzi, and then—"

我 停 了 一下 ，再次 深呼吸 ，“从 地上 爬过来！" I stopped for a second, took another deep breath, and "Crawl over the ground!"

我 听见 阿华 下床 的 声音 ，也 感觉 到 她 跪下 来 以 手掌 撑 在 地板 上 的 声音。 I heard Wah get out of bed, and I felt the sound of her kneeling down with her palms on the floor. 我 尽量 让 自 平静下来 ，控制 着 暴涨 的 下体 ，呼吸 辨别 着 空气 中 的 味道 和 感觉。 I try to calm myself down, control my bloated lower body, and breathe to discern the smells and sensations in the air. 血液 从 脑袋 流 到 下面 ，有利于 我 保持 头脑清醒。 The blood flowed down from the head to help me keep my head clear.

“用 脚 和 手 撑 地 ，把 屁股 翘起 ，慢慢 爬 过来！" "Put your feet and hands on the ground, lift your butt, and slowly climb over! 我 边 说 ，边 强力 抵制 着 脑海中 出现 的 穿着 丁字 **星号 星号，摇晃 着 两个 丰满 的 奶子 ，口角 流出 星号 星号 星号 星号 的 口水 ，象 条 母狗 一样 爬过来 的 她 的 样子。 I said this while trying to resist the image that came into my mind of her in a thong, shaking her tits, drooling from the corners of her mouth, and crawling over like a bitch. 我 集中 精神 ，用 鼻子 感觉 一切。 I concentrate and feel everything with my nose.

爬 过来 了 ，那 感觉 一点 没错 ，我 浑身 打 了 一个 冷战。 Crawling over here, it felt exactly like a cold chill all over my body. 然而 ，当 她 停 在 我 脚边 时 ，我 因 兴奋 过度 而 差点 失去 控制。 However, when she stopped at my feet, I was so excited that I almost lost control.

“小 贱货 ，不 知道 该 干什么 吗？" "Don't you know what to do, you little bitch?"

我 仍然 闭着 眼睛 ，等 她 用 温柔 和 湿热 的 小手 哆哆嗦嗦 把 我 的 裤子 拉 下来 ，我 自己 下面 发出 的 味道 一度 让 我 失去 了 控制 ，好 在 她 已经 毫不迟疑 地 把 那 东西 含进 了 嘴里。 My eyes were still closed as she shivered and pulled down my pants with her gentle, hot, wet hands, and for a moment the smell of my own pussy made me lose control, but she took it into her mouth without hesitation. Tôi vẫn nhắm mắt chờ cô ấy kéo quần tôi xuống bằng đôi bàn tay nhỏ bé dịu dàng và ẩm ướt của mình, mùi hôi từ phần dưới cơ thể tôi từng khiến tôi mất kiểm soát, may mắn thay cô ấy đã đưa thứ đó vào miệng mà không hề do dự.

“把 我 带到 **星号 星号 去！“ "Take me to the Asterisk. The Asterisk! " "Đưa tôi đến Asterisk!" 我 自己 都 听得出 我 的 声音 里 带 着 颤抖。 I could hear the tremor in my own voice. 她 吃力 地 用 嘴巴 牵引 着 我 慢慢 向 **星号星号 （床上） 移 去 ，我 仍然 闭着 眼睛。 She dragged me slowly with her mouth towards the asterisk, my eyes still closed. Cô gắng sức dùng miệng kéo tôi từ từ về phía ngôi sao (giường), tôi vẫn nhắm mắt. 到 床边 时 ，我 那 东西 已经 涨得 让 她 无法 含得 下 了。 By the time I got to the bed, my dick was so big she couldn't take it. Khi chúng tôi lên giường, đồ của tôi đã sưng tấy đến mức cô ấy không thể ngậm được trong miệng. 我 用 颤动 的 手 把 她 抱 起来 ，粗暴 地 摔 在**星号星号 (床上)。 I picked her up with trembling hands and threw her roughly on the asterisk (bed). Tôi bế cô ấy lên với đôi tay run rẩy và ném cô ấy một cách thô bạo xuống giường.

“趴下！把 你 **星号 星号 星号 星号 的 屁股 对 着 我！“ "Get down! Put your asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk ass on me! " "Nằm xuống! Hãy chĩa dấu hoa thị vào mông tôi!" 我 闭着 眼睛 ，用手 摸索 着。 I closed my eyes and felt around with my hands. 她 光滑 的 屁股 翘起来 ，我 摸 到 上面 已经 沁出 一层 汗液。 Her smooth ass turned up and I felt a layer of sweat on it. Cái mông mịn màng của cô ấy nhô lên và tôi cảm thấy một lớp mồ hôi trên đó. 当 我 摸 到 她 股沟 那条 细细的 小 绳子 时 ，发现 都 已经 湿淋淋 了 ，我 顺着 带子 向 下面 摸 去 ，感觉 到 丁字裤 的 小 细带 消失 在 她 的 秘肉 里。 When I touched the thin little rope in her groin, I found it was soaking wet. I followed the belt down and felt the thin belt of the thong disappear into her secret flesh. Khi tôi chạm vào sợi dây mỏng trên mông cô ấy, tôi thấy nó đã ướt, tôi theo sợi dây xuống phía dưới và cảm thấy sợi dây mảnh biến mất vào trong da thịt bí mật của cô ấy. 我 粗暴 的 把 带子 拉 起来 ，挂 在 她 肉感 的 屁股 上 ，然后 猛烈地 插入。 I roughly pulled the strap up, hung it on her sensual ass, and thrust it hard. Tôi thô bạo kéo sợi dây lên, treo nó lên cặp mông khêu gợi của cô ấy rồi nhét nó vào một cách thô bạo.

她 强忍 着 兴奋 ，但 还是 发出 了 快乐 的 呻吟 声。 She fought back her excitement, but still let out a happy moan. 虽然 她 已经 湿润 得 一塌糊涂 ，可是 仍然 紧紧 地 夹 着 我 ，我 现在 已经 毫无疑问 知道 我 是 在 和 谁 **星号 星号 （做爱）了。 Even though she was drenched in wetness, she still held me tightly, and I now knew without a doubt who I was asterisking (having sex). Mặc dù người cô ấy ướt sũng nhưng cô ấy vẫn ôm chặt tôi và giờ tôi biết chắc chắn mình đang quan hệ với ai.

“没有 想到 ，你 还是 那么 紧 ，你 的 那位 美国 教授 大概 是 心有余而力不足 吧 ，郭 青青！ "I didn't realize that you were still so tight, and that your American professor was probably just too weak to do anything about it, Guo Qingqing! 你 今天 怎么 不敢 去 参加 同学会？！” Why are you afraid to go to the reunion today?"

郭 青青 浑身 剧烈 抖动 了 一下 ，下面 猛然 收缩 ，几乎 要 把 我 的 东西 夹断。 Guo Qingqing shuddered violently, and the bottom shrank suddenly, almost pinching off my things. Toàn thân Quách Thanh Thanh run rẩy kịch liệt, phần thân dưới đột nhiên co rút, suýt chút nữa bóp nát đồ của tôi. 我 用力 抓住 她 的 两边 屁股 ，控制 住 她 的 扭动 ，然后 猛烈地 **星号 星号 着。 I grabbed her buttocks hard, controlled her writhing, and stared violently. Tôi nắm chặt hai bên mông cô ấy để kiểm soát sự vặn vẹo của cô ấy, sau đó đụ cô ấy thật mạnh.

郭 青青 很快 就 停止 了 反抗。 Guo Qingqing soon stopped resisting. 我 仍然 闭着 眼睛 ，千真万确 ，我 现在 是 在 和 自己 的 老 情人 、老同学 郭 青青 **星号 星号 （做爱） ！ My eyes are still closed, and it is true that I am having sex with my old lover, my old classmate, KWOK Ching-ching, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk, asterisk! Tôi vẫn nhắm mắt, chuyện tôi đang làm tình với người yêu cũ và bạn học Quách Thanh Thanh là hoàn toàn đúng! 不一会 ，我 慢下来 ，空气 中 只有 身体 摩擦 的 靡靡之音 和 郭 青青 夹杂 着 兴奋 和 委屈 的 低泣 声。 Soon I slowed down, and the only sounds in the air were the friction between my body and the low sobbing of KWOK Ching-ching mixed with excitement and aggrievement. Một lúc sau, tôi chạy chậm lại, trong không khí chỉ còn lại tiếng cơ thể ma sát và tiếng nức nở của Quách Thanh Thanh xen lẫn hưng phấn và ủy khuất.

我 抽出来 ，郭 青青 立即 象 失去 了 一条 贯穿 她 身体 的 脊梁骨 一样 ，软软 地 瘫 在 ** 星号 星号 （床上） 。 When I pulled it out, Guo Qingqing immediately slumped on the asterisk (bed) as if she had lost a backbone running through her body. Tôi rút ra, Quách Thanh Thanh lập tức như mất đi một đốt sống xuyên suốt cơ thể, nhẹ nhàng ngã xuống giường.

“你 什么 都 知道 了？”她 边 哭泣 边 小声 地问。 "You know everything?" she whispered, crying.

“我 什么 都 还 不 知道！！“ "I don't know anything yet!!" 我 睁开眼 ，却 并 不 直接 看 郭 青青 ，我 茫然若失 ，“我 只不过 知道 我 为什么 ** 星号 星号（做爱）了。 I opened my eyes, but I didn't look directly at Guo Qingqing, I was at a loss, "I just know why I have an asterisk. Tôi mở mắt ra, nhưng cũng không nhìn thẳng vào Quách Thanh Thanh, ngơ ngác nói: “Tôi chỉ biết tại sao tôi lại quan hệ tình dục.” 和 美若天仙 的 阿华 **星号 星号 （做爱）时 ，我 一 闭上眼 就 发现 房间 里 有 另外 一种 存在 ，正 因为 这种 存在 其实 就是 郭 青青 ，所以 我 潜意识 里 就 觉得 自己 在 背叛 ，或者 在 别人 的 眼前 星号 星号 （做爱），我 自然 无法 硬 起来。 When I had sex with the beautiful A-hwa, as soon as I closed my eyes, I realized that there was another kind of existence in the room, and because this kind of existence was in fact KWOK Ching-ching, I subconsciously felt that I was betraying myself or having sex in front of other people's eyes, and naturally, I was unable to get a hard-on. Khi tôi đang quan hệ tình dục với Ahua Star Star xinh đẹp, vừa nhắm mắt lại tôi phát hiện trong phòng còn có một tồn tại khác, bởi vì tồn tại này thực chất là Quách Thanh Thanh, trong tiềm thức tôi cảm thấy mình đang phản bội, hoặc có thể là đương nhiên. Tôi không thể cương cứng khi quan hệ tình dục trước mắt người khác. 直到 昨天晚上 的 同学会 上 ，邓克海 告诉 我 说 ，当 你 无法 看清楚 时 ，闭上眼睛 就 可以 感觉 ，我 才 恍然大悟。 It wasn't until last night at the reunion when Deng Kehai told me that when you can't see clearly, you can feel it by closing your eyes that it dawned on me. Mãi đến buổi họp lớp tối qua, Đặng Khắc Hải nói với tôi rằng khi không thể nhìn rõ, nhắm mắt lại có thể cảm nhận được, tôi mới chợt nhận ra. 刚才 我 回来 后 就 一直 闭着 眼睛 ，并且 不许 你 说话 ，结果 从 一 开始 我 就 发现 房间 里 其实 只有 一种 存在 ，那种 存在 就是 郭 青青！ When I came back just now, I kept my eyes closed and I didn't allow you to speak, and I realized from the very beginning that there was only one presence in the room, and that presence was Guo Qingqing! Vừa mới trở về ta đã nhắm mắt lại, không cho phép ngươi nói chuyện, kết quả ngay từ đầu ta đã phát hiện trong phòng kỳ thực chỉ có một tồn tại, mà tồn tại đó chính là Quách Thanh Thanh! 当 我 闭上眼睛 ，完全 感觉 不到 阿华！” When I close my eyes, I don't feel anything at all, A-hwa!"

“我 一直 都 知道 是 在 和 你 **星号 星号（做爱），一直 都 知道！我 爱 你！一直 爱 你！” "I always knew I was making love to you asterisk asterisk, always knew! I love you! I love you! I love you all the time!" "Anh luôn biết anh đang làm tình với em, luôn biết! Anh yêu em! Luôn yêu em!"

郭 青青 呜呜 地 哭 着 说：“你 爱 我？你 是 说 阿华 还是 郭 青青？“ KWOK Ching-ching sobbed, "Do you love me? Do you mean A-hwa or Guo Qingqing? You mean A-hwa or KWOK Ching-ching?" Quách Thanh Thanh khóc nói: "Anh yêu em à? Ý anh là Ah Hua hay Quách Thanh Thanh?" 我 强忍 着 愤怒。我 知道 ，我 永远 失去 了 阿华 ，也 再 找 不 回 郭 青青 了。 I held back my anger. I knew that I had lost A-hwa forever, and I could never find Guo Qingqing again. 而且 ，我 还 失去 了 在 我 最 失意 时 带给 我 欢乐 的 蓉 儿 ，而 这 一切都是 因为 眼前 这个 人 ，眼前 这个 我 不 知道 到 她 到底 是 谁 的 女人！ Moreover, I also lost Rong'er who brought me joy when I was most disappointed, and all of this was because of this person in front of me, this woman I didn't even know who she was!

“你 为 中央 情报局 当 走狗 ，出卖 同学 ，出卖灵魂 我 都 先 不 说。 "I won't talk about you being a lackey for the CIA, betraying your classmates, and betraying your soul. 你 告诉 我 ，你 为什么 要 杀人？你 为什么 要 杀 蓉儿？” Tell me, why did you kill someone? Why did you kill Rong'er?" 我 声音 里 的 愤怒 渐渐 增多 ，如果 不是 她 仍然 在 流泪 ，我会 抓住 她 的 头发 ，恶狠狠 地 盯 着 她 问。 The anger in my voice grew, and if it wasn't for her still crying, I would grab her by the hair and stare wickedly at her.

郭 青青 突然 停止 哭泣 ，抬起 头 ，惊恐 地 辩解 ：“我 没有 杀 蓉儿！“ Guo Qingqing suddenly stopped crying, raised her head, and defended herself in horror, "I didn't kill Rong'er. I didn't kill Rong'er!"

“你 还 狡辩 ，都 是 我 糊涂 ，我 早 该 想到 的 ，这个 世界 上 只有 你 和 蓉儿 知道 我 喜欢 穿 丁字 ** 星号 星号 的 女孩。 "You're still arguing, it's all my fault, I should have thought of it, only you and Rong'er in the world know that I like girls in ding-tao asterisks and asterisks". "Anh còn đang kiếm cớ vì tôi bối rối, đáng lẽ tôi nên nghĩ đến chuyện đó sớm hơn. Trên đời này chỉ có anh và Dung Nhi mới biết tôi thích con gái mặc đồ hình chữ T và có dấu hoa thị. 蓉 儿 死 后 还 被 人 穿 上 丁字 ** 星号 星号 （操逼），摆 出 那样 的 姿势 ，分明 是 想 让 我 痛苦。 After Rong's death, she was still dressed up with a g-string and asterisk and posed in such a way that she was clearly trying to make me suffer. Sau khi Rong'er chết, cô ấy vẫn mặc một chiếc áo hình chữ T và tạo dáng như vậy, rõ ràng là để khiến tôi đau khổ. 这个 世界 上 只有 你 不但 是 知道 我 喜欢 丁字 ** 星号 星号 （操逼），也 是 最 想 我 痛苦 的 人 ，不是 吗？！” You are the only one in this world who not only knows that I like t-asterisks (fuck), but also the person who misses my pain the most, right? ! " Bạn là người duy nhất trên thế giới này không chỉ biết tôi thích dấu hoa thị hình chữ T (chết tiệt), mà bạn còn là người nhớ nỗi đau của tôi nhất phải không? ! "

“不是 ，不是 的！”她 拼命 地 摇头 ，眼泪 再度 涌出 眼眶 ， "No, no!" She shook her head desperately, tears welled up in her eyes again. “我 一直 都 想 让 你 幸福 ，可是 不 知道 为什么 一 和 你 在 一起 ，我 就 想 让 你 痛苦。 "I've always wanted to make you happy, but I don't know why, but when I'm with you, I want to make you miserable. 后来 我 决定 完全 改变 自己 ，我 就 去 整容。 Then I decided to completely change myself and I went for plastic surgery. 我 想 那样 我 可以 忘记 自己 是 大学生 ，是 郭 青青 ，忘记 自己 是 和 你 作对 了 十几年 ，相爱 得 要死要活 的 情人。 I think that way I can forget that I am a college student, Guo Qingqing, and that I am a lover who has been against you for more than ten years and is in love to the death. 我 把 自己 变成 阿华 ，是 真想 把 自己 变成 没有 文化 ，只要 伺候 你 一辈子 的 人 ，那怕 是 做 性奴 我 也 愿意。可是——” I've turned myself into A-hwa, and I really want to turn myself into an uneducated person who will serve you for the rest of my life, even if it means becoming a sex slave, I'm willing to do it. But--"

“不许 转移 话题！这 能够 成为 变成 杀人 凶手 的 理由 吗？！“ "Don't change the subject! Can this be a reason to become a murderer?!"

“我 真的 没有 杀 蓉儿！她 是 自杀 的。 "I really didn't kill Rong'er! She committed suicide. 我 找到 她 ，我们 俩 聊天 ，大家 都 饿 了 ，于是 我 下去 买 东西 吃 ，等 我 回来 ，她 已经 自杀 了。” I found her, and we talked, and we were all hungry, so I went down to buy something to eat, and when I came back, she had committed suicide."

“放屁！” 我 用力 推开 扑上来 作 解释 的 郭 青青。 "Bullshit!" I forcefully pushed away Guo Qingqing who came to explain. 不过 ，我 随即 想起 了 法医 的 鉴定 ，他们 也 认定 蓉 儿 是 自杀 的 ，虽然 自杀 后 有人 动过 她 的 尸体 ，可是 我 还是 不 能够 相信 ，坚强 的 蓉 儿 怎么 会 自杀？ However, I then remembered the forensic expert's findings, and they also concluded that Rong'er had committed suicide. Although someone had touched her body after her suicide, I still could not believe that the strong Rong'er would commit suicide. 我们 已经 计划 好 ，等 我们 有 了 足够 的 钱 ，蓉 儿 就 洗 干净 身体 ，我们 就 结婚 ，开始 新 的 生活。 We've planned that when we have enough money, Rong'er will get cleaned up and we'll get married and start a new life.

“她 不会 自杀 的！” 我 眼睛 里 有些 湿润。 "She won't commit suicide!" My eyes got a little wet. 今天 我 突然 有种 感觉 ，这么些 年 过去 了 ，在我心中 ，那个 最 需要 我 爱 的 就是 蓉 儿 了。 Today I suddenly have a feeling that after so many years, in my heart, the one who needs my love the most is Rong'er.

“如果 她 是 自杀 ，也 一定 是 你 给 她 说 了 什么。告诉 我 ，你们 谈 了 什么？" "If she committed suicide, you must have told her something. Tell me, what did you talk about?"

“到 广州 后 ，我 找到 了 你 ，可 我 不敢 马上 见 你 ，我 跟踪 你 ，想 慢慢 接近 你。 "After arriving in Guangzhou, I found you, but I didn't dare to see you right away. I followed you, trying to get close to you slowly. 这时 我 发现 了 蓉儿 的 存在 ，我 改变 了 主意 ，我先 接触 蓉儿。" That's when I found out about Rong's existence, and I changed my mind, I contacted Rong first."

“你 用 什么 方法 接近 她？" 我 问。 "What method did you use to approach her?" I asked.

“你 的 蓉 儿 是 妓女 ，”郭 青青 擦干 脸上 的 泪痕 ，语带 讥讽 地说 ：“大概 有 十几种 方法 可以 接近 她。 "Your Rong'er is a prostitute," Guo Qingqing said mockingly, wiping away the tears on her face, "and there are about a dozen ways to get close to her. 当然 ，最 简单 的 方法 就是 买 起 她。不过 为了 对 你 尊重 ，我 没 这样 做。 Of course, the easiest way would be to buy her up. But out of respect for you, I didn't. 那天 ，我 看到 你们 在 楼上 呆 到 晚上 ，我 就 一直 在 楼下 等。你 一 离开 ，我 就 上去 敲 蓉儿 的 门。 That day, when I saw you two staying upstairs till evening, I waited downstairs. As soon as you left, I went up and knocked on Rong's door. 我 本来 只是 想 向 她 了解 一些 你 的 近况 ，我 不是 去 挑衅 的 ，你 相信 我 ，我 改变 了 ，就 象 我 的 外表 一样 ，我 彻底改变 了。 I was just going to ask her for some information about you, I didn't mean to provoke, believe me, I've changed, just like my appearance, I've changed completely. 那时 我们 在 一起 时 ，无论是 谁 只要 多 看 其他 的 异性 一眼 ，就 有 可能 引起 我们 俩 一个 星期 的 冷战。 At that time, when we were together, whoever looked at other people of the opposite sex one more time might have caused a cold war between the two of us for a week. 我 现在 想 起来 就 后悔 ，所以 我 敲 容儿 的 门 时 ，真是 只想 和 她 好好 聊聊。 When I knocked on Rong'er's door, I really just wanted to have a good chat with her. 我 甚至 想 ，我们 有 可能 成为 好 姐妹 ，反正 她 只不过 是 个 妓女 ，我 真 犯不着 嫉妒。 I even thought that we might be sisters, and anyway, she's just a whore, so I don't really need to be jealous. 可是 当 蓉儿 来 开门 时 ，我 突然 妒火中烧 ，因为 蓉儿 大概 是 以为 你 又 回来 了 ，就 急急忙忙 地 冲过来 开门。 But when Rong'er came to open the door, I suddenly became jealous because Rong'er hurried over to open the door because she probably thought you were back.